I keep having these random bouts of depression, and I don’t understand it. I should be happy…I spent years with my life on pause, stagnating, and I’m finally back in the world and finishing my degree. So why do I feel so hollow and lost? Like I even doubt my good grades, because some of these professors are like high school teachers. I feel like I’m not being super challenged. Like my record only looks good because I’ve had easy teachers….I just don’t even know how I feel. I feel like I’m on a sinking ship, and when I transfer to university next fall, I’ll be 2 hours away from Pittsburgh and away from my family and friends. Part of me wants out of here, but another part of me fears that once I am in a real university that I will be super challenged and crumble and fall. I feel like I am burning up and all that will be left is ashes scattering in the winds.